Quality>Labels

One must think that I am talking about clothes and all the fancy things. But, I am not. If you consider LOVE fancy then, may be, Yes.

I am a 90's kid and I have heard my share of all the fairy-tales and vomited. I was never a romantic but always a digger. If I were to describe myself then I would say, I am an almost 23 year old Indian girl drunk on the idea of love. Yeah, love is good, but, relationships? All these tags? NO.

All my life I have been associated with the tags and that's what everybody has appreciated. No one has ever seen beyond those tags and labels. They have never felt the quality. Don't quite get me? I'll go way baaaaaaaaccckkk!

When I was very young, say about a year old, my mother was expecting a baby. I was so happy and I always used to say "babu" aayega. And by that I meant that I am going to have a baby brother. Just imagine, how badly I was waiting for my "tabahi" which I like to call my younger sibling because that is what this creature has turned out to be. !! Okay, Let's not deviate from the topic.. So, yeah, my parents never believed me because "panditji ne kaha hai ki ladki aayegi". But, they never cared much about ladka or ladki .They were happy, girl or boy, does not matter, the baby that is going to come does. Sahi baat hai. For me also ( I guess) that mattered. And then finally THE day, I got a baby brother and by default his nick name became BABU (still curses me for that) . But the point is, the tag won over quality. Everybody saw and heard a young kid's words "babu ayega" but, nobody understood the emotion of that 1 year old. How badly I might be wanting a brother that it had to be a babu. (Yeah babu was an emotion for that 1 year old but in the end that turned out to be a tag and I am still being taunted for that tag. Not that I don't enjoy ruining my brother's life but it was a fluke.)

And when I realized this I started noticing and when I started noticing this, slowly and steadily I became commitment phobic.

We have all been very familiar with the concept of "ek ladka ladki kabhi dost nahi ho sakte" and trust me this is the lamest of the things that I have heard and I am a true Bollywood person, like I would love to make an entry anywhere at the "ahhhhh aaaaaaaa aaa aahhhhh aaa" (KJo) tune. But, on a serious note, what the fuck is it mahn? Like seriouslllllyyyyyy.. dost nahi ho sakte matlab kya? If I talk to a guy today then I better date him tomorrow because ek ladka ladki dost nahi ho sakte, right. But, what if I talk to some another guy after a week, same class and all so I really have got to talk to him, and now shit, I will have to date him again because of the same screwed logic. So now it is 2 boys in a week. Please note, I didn't want to, I had to because of the logic people have always believed in and made me too. So now, I am that bad girl because I have been dating guys after guys. And bus, ab mujhse shaadi kaun karega? Which is good, because now I am that girl who fucking never wishes to get married. Yeah, because marriage is a tag and it spoils the quality of my relationship.

Take the girls who friend zone guys, for example. Now if the girl is saying I want to be just friends and I don't want to ruin the friendship then the guy is "friendzoned" Lekin bhai, tune baat hi dost bankar ki. And when the girl is not leading you on,celebrate na. You fell for someone who is decent enough to not play around with your feelings because she values you. She just avoids the relationship so that she does not have to give it some tag because she enjoys the relationship without the complications of anything because once you are in the trap of a relationship, expectations come and ruin the game. Okay now,Let's assume the guy asked her out because he felt the sparks ( he was at least this smart to wait for the sparks.) Now, my point is, when you know there is something special between the two of you then why would you want to give it a tag? For once, why can't you just enjoy being in the moment and not think about what's next? Anyway, that tag is only going ruin it in the end.

And now if I had to now say it out-loud why I don't believe in relationships and marriages and why I would never want to get married then I would say because I don't want to ruin the quality of whatever I have with whoever I have.. I am not saying loyalty is not important but, if there is something between two people then why would one cheat? And even if one does then may be this was not it and it is so much better to be cheated in the initial stage (since no tags, it is always going to be the initial stage) than to experience this excruciating torture when you are head over heels into it. Once you are into some kind of commitment you have to keep mending it because you all are tired of each other and the excitement is gone. But, when you have just not given your special bond a name it stays fresh. But for how long? Because, at least one of the two is still looking for ways to turn into some relationship and then finally, get it to the worse level.

Same is with marriage. And it is a bloody written contract which you sign on and declare that you choose to be in a lifetime long misery because IDK why!!

As for me, I am always going to be happy without the relationship drama troubling my life because I will always look for the freshness and the tags are going to make the relationship stale.

Labels become last seasons' and old but the quality is always remembered and looked for. That's what I crave, something so good and complete, something that is beyond the labels and tags that will never define the love but will always feel it.

Something that is unfiltered yet positive. Not labeled , yet one of a kind.

Someone who is for me but not associated with me.

Someone who is with me in everything but my name.

Someone who feels it and not tags it.

Someone like that.

#Nofilter #growingup #love